Early on, even before I can remember,

I came to believe that Jesus, good behavior,

and/or the right person

could make me whole and happy

without having to face challenges

inherent in working out my own salvation

as became necessary

after I opted for self-repression

in quest of other-acceptance

forgetting before I ever knew

that the just shall live by faith, not beliefs,

which is obviously required for un-repression

and becoming again as a little child

only now with knowledge 

beyond beliefs